Hi, Jinja here! I’m distraught! Upset! Terrified! I don’t know how to put this!
RUBY NUDGES ME.
“Jinja dear, calm down a bit,
please slow down a bit. I know you’re
upset but the readers don’t know what you’re upset about. Take it slowly Jinja.”
So I’ll take it slowly. Where do I start? I know, start at the beginning, phew,
sorted. Well, I, I,
“Ruby can’t you tell them what happened?”
“No Jinj’, it’s better if you tell what
happened. Believe me, after you’ve told
this story you’ll feel a lot better about the whole thing. Anyway she would have wanted you to. I’ll be here if you need me.”
I SWALLOW HARD TRYING TO
COMPOSE MYSELF.
It happened so quickly. Three hours and she was gone!
“Who went Jinj’?” Ruby asked.
“Oh shut it Ruby! You know dam well who!” Ruby gives me a stunned stare and says
quietly,
“Yes Jinja, I know, but the readers don’t. You must make it clear what’s happening. They can’t read your mind.”
“I told you I was not a story
teller!” I yelled. Ruby said softly,
“I’m sorry Jinj’ but you’ll have to learn
and learn quickly. I know it’s hard for you,
harder for you than it would be for me to tell the story, but it’s got to be
done.”
“All right Ruby.”
Well, I’m sad to say that
Rosie passed away last week. As I have
said it was too quick for her to realise what was happening. I spoke to her only five minutes before she
went to work!
Let me set the scene for
you. It’s a Friday evening about five
thirty or six o’clock, I can’t really remember.
Well, Rosie and I were chatting quite happily about this and that as
husband and wife should do. She looked
fine then; no sign of what was to happen.
I remember the last words she said to me. Rosie said,
“See you in a few hours Jinja
darling!” This was as she walked away
towards the gate out of the field. I’m
glad Rosie wasn’t stabled in her box that day because if she had then I
wouldn’t have been able to see her before she passed away.
I SNIFF SLIGHTLY AND GULP
HARD, TRYING TO GATHER THE STRENGTH TO CARRY ON. RUBY NUDGES ME GENTLY, GIVING ME THE STRENGTH
TO CONTINUE.
“Take your time Jinja.”
The first I heard of trouble
was when word shot round the field that the Manageress had been seen running
from her house into the riding school where Rosie was working.
Fear shot through me in a
sickening wave! I jumped the gate and
ran up the yard yelling Rosie’s name again and again! I don’t know why I did this. I suppose I wanted Rosie to know I was on my
way, I don’t know, something like that.
I sprinted into the school
half a second after the Manageress.
That’s pretty good for a horse in his twenties don’t you think? Anyway, the sight that greeted me was
unpleasant in the extreme! As I ran
through the door into the school I heard the words,
“There’s nothing that can be done.” Spoken by both vets that were trying to help
Rosie. This phrase would have made me
physically sick if a horse could be so.
I stopped as I caught sight of my wife standing by the wall shaking
violently. I tried telling Rosie that I loved
her and that all would be fine in a minute.
There was no visible reaction from Rosie! Rosie suddenly sank to her knees and rolled
onto her side!
I charged forward towards
Rosie! The Manageress fought me
off! She then did something that was
totally out of character. Although,
thinking about it now I couldn’t blame her.
She yelled at me!
“Get off Jinja, there’s nothing you can
do!” I think her fury was fuelled by
grief.
“Rosie’s my wife!” I sobbed.
The Manageress calmed down a little.
“I know Jinj’, I know,” she said.
I watched as a tremor seemed to shake Rosie’s body to the core. I knew then that the end had come, Rosie was
dead! Strangely I felt anger towards the
Manageress! I knew it was wrong, stupid,
ungrateful, useless to feel angry, but I did!
I managed to stop myself from accusing the Manageress of anything, just
in time. I couldn’t do anything but
cry. The Manageress put her arms round
my neck and hugged me.
“Don’t worry Jinj’, she’s gone to a great
home,” she said.
“I hope so! I hope so!”
I replied. In time I calmed down
enough to be led away. The Manageress
had no head collar to hand so she put her arm round my neck and trusted me not
to run off. I had no intention of doing
anything of the sort. We walked back to
the field from which I had fled in panic three hours previously. Those hours had seemed like decades! The Manageress let me walk on alone into the
field. I trudged over the grass feeling
almost too sick for description. I
wanted to feel warm, safe, loved! I felt
sure that John my owner, and the Manageress, and possibly some of the other
horses loved me. But all this seemed
unimportant, it shouldn’t have and I’m sorry for thinking such thoughts, it’s
horrible to discount all your friends and family. But I hadn’t meant to. The thought that I may have for even a second
discounted anyone made me feel worse, if that was possible. But my thoughts kept straying back.
“Rosie, oh Rosie dear!” I said out loud.
“What’s the point in that Jinja, she
can’t hear you.” I thought. But I wanted to believe she could, I
desperately wanted to believe it! I lay
in the grass thinking of my wife. I
remembered the good times we had together.
I relived the time when I had first set eyes on her and realised that I
could love another horse. You see until
then I had disliked all horses. It seems
strange, as I am one myself. But that
was the case. Well, until Rosie came
along that is. I think our relationship
is written about in another story. Refer
to that if you want Rosie’s view on things.
I knew that Rosie was special, really special! I loved her as best I knew how. And you know what the most treasured thought
I have is? I am certain of this; it is
that I know our love would last through anything. I would defend Rosie with all my being. I think that was also written about not so
long ago. My thoughts drifted away.
“Oh no!
It’s only been two weeks since the last story ended! I’ve hardly recovered from Figaro’s departure
and now Rosie’s gone! Who will lead the
herd now?” Then my thoughts whirled back
to Rosie. Against my better judgement I
started talking aloud to her as if she were still alive and standing in the
field next to me.
“You all right now Rosie? I hope so.”
I ended up weeping into the grass.
The feeling of total desolation was almost intolerable. I seemed then to take leave of my
senses. I couldn’t control what I
did. I was told later that I reared up
on my hind legs and yelled,
“Rosie!!” at the top of my voice. I was also told that No horse had got
vertical before. I was in imminent
danger of falling over backwards. It was
a still, quiet night and my cry brought a crowd of horses into the field. As for me I lay down in the grass exhausted
by grief and my sudden activity. I
hardly noticed the passage of time, nor the chatter and activity of the horses
around me. I was once dimly aware of one
asking,
“But why should he yell like that?” Another quickly answered the question.
In the morning I woke to find
the horses gone and myself wondering whether Rosie’s passing had been a bad
dream. The sight of a notice beside
Rosie’s box brought the truth forcefully home to me. The notice bore Rosie’s full name, plus the
date on which she passed away, and a small piece of text at the bottom saying
that loving memories of Rosie would always be treasured. At the sight of this I dissolved into tears.
I felt a nose gently
brushing mine. I looked up to see an
Irish Draft horse, grey like Rosie standing there. She was looking at me with sympathy mixed
with grief. My brain thought
“Rosie!”
My eyes told me that I was looking at Ellen. I managed to bite back any exclamation, but
Ellen was too smart and knew what had gone through my mind.
“I’m not Rosie Jinja,” she said.
“No Ellen, I know, I’m sorry!” I replied.
Then I remembered why Ellen had similar looks to Rosie. My mouth was suddenly dry! I thought franticly!
“Ellen’s Rosie’s niece! Ellen’s mother was Rosie’s sister!” That would explain the look on Ellen’s face
as she faced me, it explained everything!
Ellen shook herself and finally spoke.
“You frightened a lot of horses last
night Jinja.” I asked stupidly,
“Why?
What did I do?” To my surprise
Ellen became angry!
“You reared up on your hind legs and screamed my aunts name! Why did you do this Jinja?” she asked harshly. It struck me that Ellen didn’t know that
Rosie and I had been in a relationship together for a long time. I tried to get the words “Rosie was my
wife” out but they didn’t come. My hesitation and faltering explanation
served to anger Ellen further. Ellen was
maddened by grief!
“What is it Jinja?” she screamed!
I didn’t answer, couldn’t answer.
I was too upset for confrontation.
My saviour was a horse that I had never met before. This was strange since she lived next door to
Ruby. This horse was named Clover, and
I’ll be eternally grateful to her for saving me from the business end of a kick
from a very powerful and very angry Irish Draft mare. Clover said,
“Rosie was Jinja’s wife Ellen.” I stared at Clover, I know it was extremely
rude to stare at a horse I had never met before, but Clover didn’t seem to
mind. In fact she gave me as good as she
got.
“Sorry Sir, that was
disrespectful.” Clover said.
“What are you talking about?” I asked.
“Well, you were married to Rosie. You are now technically the leader of the
herd.” Clover replied.
“Oh no, no I’m not the leader. I couldn’t do it.” I protested.
“We’ll have to have an election
then.” Clover said. She thought for a few seconds.
“And this time it had better work.” She added.
Ruby said,
“If I remember rightly the last
elections were unacceptable because the vote counter cast rather than counted
votes.”
Clover has not had any part
in the previous stories and it is only now that she has made herself
known. She kept quiet up till now and I
have to say that I think Clover is one of the most wonderful vaulting horses I
have ever met. On top of being good at
her art she is also tolerant of most people.
Unfortunately for Clover she has only a short time to live due to liver
failure. She knows this but does not let
it get her down. Today’s events were a
prime example of this unstoppable love of life.
I nuzzled Clover’s cheek, she started to laugh! This was a strange sound, strange in that
only fourteen hours ago a horse had died.
“Get off Jinj’!” she said
playfully. Clover delivered a stinging
blow to my nose with hers. It hurt!
“Be careful Clover! Jinja’s Mrs. Would never forgive you!” Misty shouted. Then she realised what she had said and
looked away, deeply ashamed.
“Sorry Jinja.” Misty said quietly. I stopped dead! Rosie!
I laid my head on Clover’s shoulder and sobbed like a foal.
“Hey Jinj’, come on mate. Rosie wouldn’t want you to cry.” Clover said softly. I hugged Clover as best I could.
“You’re wonderful Clover.” I said.
“I don’t think I would go quite that
far.” Clover replied. After a while I left the main yard and went
for a walk on my own. I walked up
towards Fleur’s wood, or should I say where Fleur’s wood used to be. The felled trees still littered the landscape
where they had been dumped. I looked at
the carnage with sadness. I realised
that it symbolised my life, yes, in pieces.
I didn’t spend long there. I
carried on back down the track and into the yard thinking of my wife all the
time I walked. It was only when Cleo
commented on it that I realised I was crying.
I suppose I had got to the stage where I didn’t care what people thought
of me showing my feelings.
In one way or another all
the horses were affected by Rosie’s passing.
I knew that Ellen hated me.
Clover, who had many problems of her own was trying her best to cheer
me. This meant a lot to me. I have mentioned two out of several
horses. Please understand that I cannot
document all the reaction to one of the most unhappy episodes in the yard. The reasons for this are double-edged. Firstly that I would not want any horses to
be made more unhappy than they already are.
Secondly that if I asked them anything, they’d probably hound me off the
premises. I’m no journalist and never
could be.
Enough of that journalist
stuff however. A week had passed since
the events of the ninth of April nineteen ninety-eight. The media had been informed of Rosie’s
passing and the local B.B.C radio station to anyone that listened to the radio
had broadcast it. It appeared that
Rosie’s misfortune had affected far more people than just the horses and the
Manageress’s family and the people she employed to look after the horses. People were coming in from far and wide to do
whatever humans always seem to do when a much-loved animal passes away. It seemed that far more people came to visit
the yard and it’s occupants than could possibly live in Wickham Market and the
surrounding villages. I concluded that
Rosie must have appealed to far more people than we, or even she knew. Over
time my outpouring of grief for my wife became less intense but more
potent. By this I mean that in the first
two days I was away for long periods of time on my own. Private grief I suppose. Now I was ready to share my memories of Rosie
with other people and to have them share their memories of her with me. It seemed to help some horses and countless
humans to be able to talk face to face with me.
I know for a fact that some of the humans didn’t understand what I said
in return but it seemed to help.
One day I was talking to Clover
and telling her about the time when Rosie and I first met. When I say met, I mean really got to know
each other. We had known each other for
years. Our relationship started two
years ago. It seemed like a lifetime I
can tell you. Rosie was the best thing
that had ever happened to me and I wanted everyone to know that. I didn’t know then but this seemingly
ordinary chat with Clover wasn’t so ordinary.
I don’t know if the events that took place in the following months had
anything to do with what she said on that day.
I would like to think that Clover was right. She kept saying things like:
“Rosie will come back Jinja.” And:
“Rosie’s standing right behind you but you
can’t see her.” This scared me I can
tell you.
“What do you mean Clover? What are you?
Some sort of paranormal psychic or something?” Clover smiled at me.
“I’m none of those things Jinja, anyway,
I wouldn’t tell anyone if I were.” I
have to say that Clover’s amazing but from that day on she gave me strange
vibes that I didn’t entirely like. Clover noticed my reluctance to talk about
certain subjects and commented on it.
“You’re not frightened of me are you
Jinja?” She asked pleasantly.
“No, no, I’m not frightened of you. Why should I be?” This was a bare faced lie and Clover knew
it. I was just about to blow my top at
Clover and give her a lecture on brainwashing when a horse, who was walking
into the yard at that moment caught my eye.
I watched in astonishment as
the horse walked towards me. She was
Irish Draft and to my eye looked like Rosie, too like Rosie. But I knew that from now on all grey Irish
Draft horses would look like Rosie.
There was something in the way the horse behaved. Something unusual for a newcomer, odd, very
odd indeed. The Irish Draft mare was too
assured for a newcomer. She seemed to be
too familiar with her surroundings to be a total stranger. Clover and Ruby noticed it too. Ruby called out to the newcomer.
“Hey!
What do you think you’re doing?”
The Irish Draft mare looked at her.
“Nothing much, why what does it look
like?” the mare replied. Ruby lost her temper!
“What do you think you’re doing walking in
here unannounced, and then talking to a resident in that fashion?” The poor mare looked unhappy, in fact she
looked so unhappy that I felt sorry for her.
Ruby put the hoof in hard!
“all right what’s the story? LONG LOST TRAVALLER I’LL BET!” SHE SCOFFED.
Clover apologised to the now frightened newcomer for Ruby’s actions and
asked the mare what her name was.
“They call me Jessie.” The newcomer replied.
“Jessie? Rosie?” My mind was whirling. All I knew was that there was something
almost too familiar about that mare.
Clover continued her gentle questioning, teasing the story out of the
Irish Draft mare standing before us.
Clover’s patient coaxing did the trick and the newcomer was coming out
with information with far less misgiving than she had at first.
“I used to live in a stable near
Manchester.” Jessie began.
“Oh yeah, I’ll really believe that! What did you do, fly down here?” Ruby sneered.
I had never known Ruby to act like this.
Perhaps she noticed the same things as I did and they frightened
her? I don’t know. Jessie stopped to take a breath and then
continued:
“The horse box I was in crashed on route
to Suffolk. I was on route to a prison
of some sort. They said it was to help
the prisoners or something. I think the
place I was going to had something to do with hoses. Something like that anyway, I’m no longer
sure, come to think of it I’m no longer sure about anything!”
“You’re going the wrong way. The place you’re looking for is in the
opposite direction.” Clover said.
“Let me finish please!” Jessie pleaded. Her eyes were wild as she said:
“The horse box was being driven along the
motorway. It was dark. I didn’t know the time of day. The last time I looked at a clock it was
seven thirty and I think at least three hours had passed. Oh yes!
I remember now, the ten P.M news had just finished, ah that makes it ten
thirty then. Well, The horsebox suddenly
braked to a halt and ended up on its side in a mangled wreck with many other
cars that had ploughed into it. The
accident was so quick I couldn’t take it in!
Then I was lying on the verge where I had been thrown by the force of
the crash. Then I don’t remember much
more until I found myself on a big main road from Ipswich. I spent hours trying unsuccessfully to piece
together what had happened. Surely the
crash happened in Northamptonshire?
Anyway I gave up this fruitless search for answers and addressed the
needs I had at that moment.” Ruby,
Clover and I were staring at the newcomer with an intensity that bordered on
having a kick in the teeth as punishment, literally! Jessie bore it bravely however. I thought of Rosie and of the way she used to
be able to stand up to people staring at her.
“No she’s not Rosie, she’s not
Rosie!” I told myself forcefully.
“What were those needs my dear?” Clover asked gently. Jessie paced back and forth in front of us.
“Those needs? Ah yes, well, you know, a place to sleep,
food, water, immediate survival, that sort of thing. I also felt a tremendous sadness. I can’t explain why I felt unhappy. All I knew was that I had to get to a place,
a stable yard. Don’t ask me which one
because I don’t know. But there was no
getting round the fact that someone needed me, I don’t know who.” I nearly cried out! I bit my tongue to stop myself. Jessie observed my antics with slight
amusement. Ruby noticed the slight smile
on her lips and shot her down.
“You think that seeing a horse go
through hell is funny? Jinja’s just lost
his wife, by pure coincidence you look remarkably similar to her. That is why he’s going mad!” Jessie continued:
“I walked for days and arrived here. Don’t ask me how I found this place.” Clover stopped the newcomer.
“Hey, hang on, wait a minute. You say that you set off from Manchester with
one destination and arrived in Suffolk with an uncontrollable urge to get to a
completely different place?” This
question totally foxed Jessie who looked down at her hooves trying to conceal
the fact she was sobbing.
“I don’t know, I don’t know! I’m confused!” she yelled.
“When did the horse box crash? I mean what day?” Clover asked.
I could almost see Jessie thinking out her reply.
“A Friday I think.” She replied.
I choked back tears. Jessie came
close and hugged me. Clover’s shocked
expression stopped misty on her way back to her box.
“What’s the matter Clover?” she asked.
Clover knew better than to answer her truthfully. For it appeared that Misty couldn’t see
Jessie. Or if she could she wasn’t
letting on.
“Perhaps she thinks Jessie’s Ellen. Misty can go on thinking that until I’ve
sorted this out.” Clover thought. She replied to Misty’s question.
“I was thinking about Rosie.” Well that was half-true. The truth was, Clover didn’t know what had
brought this strange mare to the yard.
Meanwhile I had stopped
crying and Jessie was engaged in rubbing her nose in a rather too familiar way
against mine. Clover said,
“Jessie, something tells me that you’ve
met Jinja before.” Jessie replied,
“Well, yes I feel as if I’ve known him
all my life.”
“She’s Rosie.” I thought.
Suddenly someone said,
“There’s Ellen standing next to
Jinja.” I thumped Jessie urgently!
“Run Jessie!” I yelled. Jessie bolted down the yard. But the Manageress was too quick for
her. She expertly caught her and slowed
her down to a walk and then to a halt.
The Manageress looked at Jessie and Jessie stared back.
“You are not Ellen.” The Manageress said. She looked harder at Jessie’s coat and her
mane and into her eyes. Jessie stood
with every muscle tense. Only when the
Manageress let her go did she relax. The
Manageress walked away in silence, evidently thinking deeply. Jessie drooped with tiredness.
“I can’t take much more of this,” she said.
I opened my mouth to quiz her further, but Jessie stopped me.
“No more questions Jinja. Wait and see,” she said.
My pulse was racing, not good for a horse in his later life. I blurted out:
“Look Rose’, I mean Jessie, I’m getting
past my prime, if you’re holding back on me I must know, for sure if you are,
or are not Rosie!” I implored.
“All right, just one more question
Jinj’.” Jessie conceded.
“Do you remember a riding lesson?” I asked.
I should have seen that asking a horse if she remembered a riding
lesson, was like asking a dog if he remembers eating a bone.
“Yes, several, one in particular? She
asked.”
“Well Ye’, one in particular.” I replied.
I then outlined to Jessie or Rosie, I wasn’t sure any more, what had
taken place at ten fifteen on Friday ninth April. As soon as I had finished I wished I hadn’t
ever started! The fear and terror was
visible in her eyes. She said,
“I remember.” Jessie was now sobbing. I asked,
“Look Jessie, are you my wife? Are you Rosie? I know you are, so admit it. Please tell me yes or no. I can’t stand much more of this my darling!” I ventured.
This type of address always used to bring Rosie close to tears. Jessie looked at me through her tears.
“Come with me,” she said.
Jessie or Rosie, it doesn’t really matter what I called her, I was convinced that they were one and the
same. Well, she led me into Fleur’s
street. Misty stared at her as she
passed. Misty snorted.
“And you’re swearing that you’re not Rosie?” she asked.
Jessie looked uncomfortable.
“I don’t know, I really don’t know.” She replied.
Jessie then said something that made me stop dead in my tracks.
“Where’s Natasha gone?”
“You what!” I said.
“Natasha’s name plate has gone, where
has she got to?” Jessie asked anxiously.
“There is no point in hiding your true
identity Jessie or should I say, Rosie.
No horse that was in any way a newcomer to the yard would know of
Natasha let alone feel something towards her.
You are Rosie!” I said.
“Don’t pressure me Jinj’ love, please
don’t pressure me.” She pleaded. I think I’ll refer to this new horse as Rosie
from now on. I am certain that her real
identity was uncovered.
Meanwhile the Manageress and
her employees were having an emergency meeting about the events described
above. The Manageress was being quizzed
about supposed sightings of a horse that looked almost identical to Rosie.
“All right, you say you saw this horse
that looked much like Rosie wondering around the yard?” one instructor asked.
“Well yes, at first I thought Ellen was
standing by Jinja. Then I took a second
look and realised that she wasn’t. The
horse ran off, I caught her and examined her.”
“What did you find?” another instructor asked.
“A healthy horse, good teeth, coat, clear
eyes, a picture of health.” The
Manageress replied. One instructor
started to say,
“We all wish that Rosie hadn’t passed on,
but there’s,” Suddenly the door to the restaurant where the meeting was being
held was kicked open! A large Irish
Draft horse thrust her nose in through the opening. The humans around the table stared at the
large horse in astonishment! Rosie then
said,
“Hey man! I’m gasping for tea!” In the middle of the table stood one of those
large tea urns, you know the type of thing.
A large kettle affair with a tap for drawing the liquid. Well, Rosie saw this much-desired source of
tea and whinnying with delight snatched off the lid and started drinking. The fact that the liquid was almost boiling
didn’t seem to bother her in the slightest.
One of the instructors said angrily,
“Get your nose out of there!” Rosie took no notice and kept on drinking.
Meanwhile the Manageress was laughing helplessly.
“You see, no other horse had a passion for
tea like Rosie had.” The Manageress said.
With a satisfied slurp Rosie finished the tea and withdrew her nose from
the urn.
“Wonderful stuff!” she said.
Meanwhile I had gone round
the back and into the riding school to approach the restaurant from the other
side. I squeezed down a narrow passage
and was now engaged on bashing the connecting door to the restaurant with all
my force! There was a crash and a sound
of splintering wood mixed with human swearing as Rosie fought her way through
the restaurant leaving a trail of destruction in her wake.
“This place goes from eccentric to
insane!” the Manageress shouted. Rosie looked behind her and saw the mess.
“Sorry about the damage. But it’s fun isn’t it!” she said. The Manageress surveyed the battered
restaurant in silence. Rosie tried to
open the door into the passage and gave up after a few attempts. With a sigh of frustration she put her large
left fore foot on the lever that opened the door and pushed down. The door came swinging my way, dam! I felt stupid, I had been trying to kick a
door down that opened my way! I
hurriedly backed off and stood in the school keeping my gaze from the
restaurant. I noticed for the first time
that Domino had been shut in with me.
“Perhaps she’s working.” I thought.
On closer inspection however it seemed that Domino wasn’t working, no,
not working, more like asleep! There is
a half door type of thing that the instructors put across the gap into the
school during lessons. Domino was
leaning on it sleeping peacefully. I
felt sorry for bashing the restaurant door as hard as I had. Domino shifted her weight slightly. The door suddenly gave way under her! With a scream of terror Domino pitched
sideways over the collapsing door and on into the small riding school. She screamed,
“Help!
What’s happening!” as she fell and rolled across the school. Domino finally came to rest on the concrete
of the yard. She sprang to her feet and
whirled round to see what damage had been caused. Domino’s horrified expression as she saw the
state of the door was comical!
“What have I done!” she asked.
I was laughing too hard to be of assistance to her. Domino said,
“You can laugh Jinja. It wasn’t you that destroyed that door!”
“Sorry Domino.” I laughed.
“You’re not, if you were you wouldn’t be
laughing.” She replied. That was true. I saw Rosie and the Manageress walk into the
indoor school behind Domino. Instinctively
Domino rested her head on Rosie’s shoulder, not realising what she was
doing. When Domino looked properly and
saw Rosie she squealed with fear and charged off round and round the perimeter
of the school. Rosie set off in
pursuit. She seemed to think this was
some sort of game. But Domino was really
frightened! She ran right into the
corners to avoid Rosie. In the end
Rosie’s staying power defeated Domino and Rosie managed to catch up with her.
“What’s going on Domino?” Rosie asked gently. Domino’s eyes were wild.
“You mean I laid my head on the shoulder
of a spirit?” She asked hoarsely.
“I don’t know.” Rosie replied. Domino yelled into Rosie’s ear at close
range.
“Well, Rosie, Jessie or whatever you want to
call yourself. You should know, You
couldn’t go round not knowing your own identity. You must be a spirit, because horses don’t
come back from the dead. Rosie or
Jessie, oh whatever, anyway you were dead.
Well Rosie was anyway. And then
there’s Jinja. He keeps calling you
Rosie, I don’t know whether that’s wishful thinking, or whether it’s true. If it’s true, then how did it happen?” Domino had been so intent on holding forth
about spirits and such like that she had not noticed that Rosie had tears
rolling down her nose. She noticed at
last and made a very spiteful comment.
“You big Foal! What’s the matter Rosie? Missing mummy are we?” she scoffed.
I saw that Domino’s fear made her vindictive. Rosie sobbed,
“I don’t know, I’m frightened, confused,
terrified!” I tried to comfort Rosie as
best I could.
“Come on Rosie my dear. You should know what Domino’s like, you were
leader of the herd. You remember that
don’t you Rosie dear?” I rubbed Rosie’s
wet nose with mine. I noticed that she
was trembling violently. My mind strayed
unbidden back to the sight of her in the school moments before she passed away.
“Don’t die on me Rosie!” I pleaded.
“I’m not dying. I’m just badly frightened Jinja.” Rosie replied. She tried to bury her head in my
shoulder. This was almost impossible
because Rosie’s a lot larger than I am.
The Manageress had stood silently watching us. Domino stamped out of the school and before
she left she had one last shot at Rosie.
She yelled,
“I want answers Rosie!” Rosie howled in misery. The Manageress watched Domino’s departure
from the scene with fury.
“Stupid horse!” she fumed. The Manageress came closer to Rosie and put
her arms around her neck. The massive
Irish Draft mare rubbed her nose against the Manageress’s shoulder.
“Are you Rosie? Come on dear, you can tell me.” The Manageress coaxed. She ran a finger down Rosie’s nose. Rosie bashed the Manageress’s shoulder
hard! She said,
“Hey!
Get off! That tickles!”
“Rosie you bully!” the Manageress said. She returned to the point.
“Are you Rosie or aren’t you?” The Manageress asked. The expression on Rosie’s face made the
Manageress wish she hadn’t asked. Rosie
looked so unhappy that the Manageress thought of telling her that it didn’t
really matter what her answer was. Rosie
sighed heavily.
“I should be able to tell you, more than
anyone, but the absolute truth is that I don’t know who I am. I know Jinja, I even knew Natasha. So I must be Rosie. But who’s Rosie? I mean that I remember all that happened
before my death. But why did I
die?” The Manageress led us out of the
school and towards Rosie’s box. Rosie
saw another horse standing in her place.
“Who’s that?” she asked.
I read the nameplate on the door.
“Crofter.”
I read. The horse named Crofter
was in a foul mood and had his back turned to us. The Manageress whistled and shouted at the
horse.
“Oi Crofter, wake up!” The horse turned towards us and brightened a
little.
“Hey Rosie!” he welcomed.
Then he looked at the notice informing horses and humans of Rosie’s
passing. Then he look quickly back at
Rosie. Crofter’s face told us he was
frightened! With a massive effort he
controlled himself enough to ask carefully.
“what or who are you?” Rosie’s confused expression upset me.
“She’s a horse Crofter, don’t you
recognise Rosie?” I asked. Crofter replied,
“Rosie’s dead.” Ruby chipped in,
“Passed away Crofter, not dead, it’s not
very nice.”
“Oh whatever.” Crofter said.
Rosie looked at the notice referred to above.
“It says “passed away due to colic”” Rosie said.
Clover called Rosie over to her.
“If you are Rosie, how can this
happen?” Rosie looked away.
“I
don’t know Clover, why does every horse I meet ask me that?” Rosie was getting upset. I had a question for Clover.
“What was that you said about Rosie
coming back to me?” I asked. Clover
stiffened and a wild frantic look flitted across her face.
“Oh, um, well, err, well Jinja I, I didn’t really think it would
happen. I was trying to comfort you,
that’s all I meant to do.” Clover
replied. The Manageress said,
“So you are Rosie.” Rosie squealed with Frustration and screamed
her reply into the Manageress’s ear at close range.
“I keep telling you human, I don’t
know!!” The Manageress stood back a
fraction.
“Thank you Rosie I heard you quite
clearly the first time,” she said. Rosie asked,
“If you heard me the first time why do
you insist on asking the same question?”
Rosie suddenly yelled!
“I can’t stand this “Are you Rosie? Are you Rosie? Are you Rosie?” All the time.
Can’t you ask me something else?”
Rosie suddenly ran off! She
sprinted down the yard and across the road towards some fields. I followed her at a more sedate pace.
We wound up in a field a
good distance from the yard.
“Why have we come here?” I asked.
“Because I wanted to spend some time with
you on your own.” Rosie replied. Then I remembered, it was only ten hours ago
that Rosie, or Jessie as she was then known, came onto the scene. It was now dark and I was getting a little
apprehensive about the next few hours.
Would Rosie have to leave me? I
asked her.
“Oh no Jinja. Where ever did you get that idea from? I’ll never leave you, never ever again.” Relief flooded through me in a wave that made
me feel sick.
“Good!”
I replied. I asked,
“Rosie dear, what happened while you were
away?” Rosie made a great effort not to
break down.
“It frightens me to think about it
Jinj’. Well, I was in the riding school I think. I can’t be absolutely sure because I don’t
remember much. But I remember being in
sudden pain, then the pain going quickly and a sort of drowsy feeling taking
over. I heard someone say something
about them loving me and that all would be fine, at least I think that’s what
they said.” I rested my head on Rosie’s
shoulder and burst into tears.
“Don’t say any more Rose’, don’t tell me
any more. It’s too awful Rosie. Leave the detail out, just tell me the
facts!” I pleaded. Rosie closed her eyes marshalling her
thoughts before continuing.
“Well, err, ah yes. I woke on a grass verge in a strange place. I didn’t know what had happened to me. All I knew was that I had to survive. I didn’t know why I had to find a home, I
just had to. There was that other
feeling that wouldn’t leave me. The
feeling that someone needed me desperately.
I also had these other memories of another journey to deal with. I hope that explains my confusion when I
arrived here. I half remembered things
from here. I found Ipswich and walked
round there for a while, in the dark of course.
There was no inspiration there so I ventured out further from the town
until I came to Wickham Market. I saw a
sign I recognised as pointing towards home!
I ran! Driven by some
unexplainable force. Then, I arrived
here.” Rosie shivered.
“It’s cold out here Jinj’, Isn’t there
anywhere else we could go that’s a little warmer?” I had stopped crying and now felt composed
enough to look for a warm dry place to sleep.
Rosie shivered her way across the field in my wake as I searched out a
dry warm place. I remembered that Rosie
used not to be affected by the cold. Now
she shivered violently. Her teeth
chattered and she drooped with misery.
“I don’t know about Y, You Jinj’. But I’m going back t, to the yard. It’s freezing!” Rosie said.
She turned tail and walked down the field back towards the yard. I followed her more slowly. I observed that Rosie’s walk was different
than I remembered. More spring in her step. I remember that she was said to amble rather
than walk. Now the way she walked was
different. As she walked she sung a
curious song. It sounded human in its
origins.
“I got my first real six string, bought it
at the five and dime. Played it till my
fingers bled, was the summer of sixty nine.”
Then she stopped.
“Is that all?” I asked.
Rosie looked round at me.
“What?
Oh no, no there’s more to it than that I think. You see Jinj’ I’ve only heard it a few times,
it’s by someone called Brian Adams I believe.”
I nuzzled her cheek gently. Rosie
laughed and rubbed back against me.
“Jinja I love you more than I can tell
you,” she said. For some strange reason I started laughing
too. It was a strange thing to do
because there was nothing remotely funny in walking down a field singing a
half-known song. But all the same, there
we were laughing like foals at nothing in particular. I think the joy of life and love had stirred
in us. We entered the yard feeling
better than we had for years.
As we were entering the
Manageress was leaving to go home.
“Oh hi you two!” she said.
We rubbed our noses affectionately against her coat and each in turn we
rested our heads on her shoulder. First
Rosie then I did it. This made the
Manageress laugh.
“You two are soppy,” she said.
She rubbed a hand along our backs and fondled our ears. This felt wonderful! Rosie obviously felt the same way as I did
because she whinnied with joy and hugged the Manageress. I think Rosie was too enthusiastic because
the Manageress had to fight her off.
That was another thing that had changed.
Rosie used to be very visual when it came to showing affection. Now she was more tactile. Buy tactile I mean she nuzzled and rubbed
herself against the objects of her affections more than she used to.
A cold blast of wind bit
into us as we stood in the darkness.
There was a light above where Rosie and I stood and the Manageress saw
Rosie shiver. She thought for a minute.
“I know what we’ll do with you two. How does a night in the indoor school
sound?” Rosie and I were delighted! We nuzzled the Manageress and skipped about.
“Thought you’d like that.” The Manageress said.
We followed the Manageress
into the indoor school where she left us and closed the door behind her.
“Good night you two.” She had said as she left.
“See you in the morning and thanks
again!” We whinnied. The Manageress was laughing as she left.
“Those two are great,” she said to no one in particular.
Rosie and I were now alone
in the shelter and warmth of the indoor riding school. There was a stack of straw in one
corner. We knocked this over and found
that the stack was made of bales and not just a mound as we had first
thought. Best of all there was enough
for food and bedding, Luxury indeed! You
see with all the activity of the last day both Rosie and I had either felt too
ill to eat or had just forgotten to. Now
all was quiet we were ravenous. We
scoffed the straw at an alarming rate!
Rosie didn’t used to eat much but now she ate her old fill and about
twice as much again. Not excessive,
healthy amounts I’d say. We both lay
down on the straw bedding feeling on top of the world! As I drifted off to sleep that night I
thanked whoever it was that had brought Rosie back to me. I finally rested my head on my wife’s neck
and slept peacefully.
I awoke in the middle of the
night feeling terrified!
“Rosie!
Rosie’s gone!” I thought. I
raised my head and whinnied loudly. It
was a sound that was full of pain!
Suddenly I felt something rubbing my nose. Another nose?
It had to be, yes, a horse’s nose.
There was another horse in here with me.
But who could it be? Someone said
softly,
“Jinja, Jinja darling. What’s the matter?”
“R, Rosie?” I choked.
“Yes Jinj’ it’s me, Rosie.” Rosie added,
“I’ll only leave you if you stop loving
me.”
“That’ll never happen.” I said earnestly. Rosie said,
“You know something Jinja? It was your love for me that brought me back
here.” I stared at my wife.
“But if you didn’t want to come back I
wouldn’t have forced you!” I said.
“You’ve got it wrong Jinj’, I love you
more than I have ever loved another horse.
What I meant was that usually if a mare passes on the male will search
out another mare and carry on. You
didn’t do that, you remained true to me, true to my memory. I know you Jinja, you’ll never go with
another mare, never in your life. It’s
not your way. I think being with humans
has influenced this. The society we live
in is Monogamous.” I stopped her.
“Hang on Rosie, what’s “monogamous?”” I asked.
Rosie laughed,
“Oh that means that there are only two
people in a marriage.”
“Oh right.” I replied.
“And because you have been influenced by
the way humans behave that’s why you don’t really like other horses. When you found one you did like you wanted to
stay with them forever. “In sickness and
in health” isn’t that the saying?” This
reduced me to tears. I hugged Rosie and
told her that I would never leave her, and I meant it. I wanted Rosie more than I could tell her,
and, it seemed that she wanted me. I
noticed that Rosie was crying also. She
dried her eyes and perked up a little.
Rosie suggested:
“Come on Jinj’, let’s walk about for a
bit.” We opened the door to the outside
air. A cold blast of freezing April air
hit us! Rosie swore under her breath and
withdrew back into the warmth of the school.
“Maybe not Jinj’,” she said.
“But Rosie, you used to go out in all
weather without a rug on. You never
minded then. So why now?” Rosie seemed to be screwing herself up to
tell me something important.
“I don’t know how I can put this. You see Jinj’, my body’s changed. I’m the same person inside, but my body’s
that of a younger horse. All right this
body may look much the same as my old one but it’s not. You’ve probably seen that for yourself. The fact that I can’t stand the cold is one
change.” I thought that I might be able
to solve her problem. I knew where the
Manageress kept the horse rugs. I
thought I could get one for Rosie. I ran
through the wind and cold towards the rug room.
I saw there was a key to the door on a hook well out of reach of most
horses. But I, Jinja, am not like most
horses. I reared up and grabbed the
large Chubb key off the hook. Fitting it
into the lock was proving more difficult.
Eventually I resorted to feeling with the key for the hole rather than
looking for it. Eventually I got it in
and turned it with my teeth. The door
swung outwards and I was in! Pull cords
operated all the lights in the tack and rug rooms. Great for horses really, don’t you
think? I pulled the cord and was in
business.
That proved to be my
undoing. The light from the rug room
brought the Manageress and her Son John from their house. They were running! They stopped when they saw me. John asked,
“Jinja, what are you doing here?” The Manageress was looking on the floor for
the key. Finding it she picked it up and
re-hung it on the hook.
“Come on Jinj’, explain yourself,” she said.
I thought quickly!
“Rosie’s cold, I was getting a rug for
her.” I replied. The Manageress smiled.
“Isn’t that sweet,” she said.
She dove into the rug room and re-appeared with the duvet rug mentioned
in the first two stories written about the occupants of the yard. I stared at it!
“That’s Rosie’s old rug. She loved that rug!” I said.
John put his arms around my neck and hugged me.
“You’re a great horse Jinja,” he said.
I returned his hug feeling that I had neglected him lately. We returned to the riding school.
We walked through the door
to see a very distressed Irish Draft mare stamping about. Rosie turned towards us. Her face was pale and she was shaking with
fear!
“Jinja!
I was so worried about you! Where
the hell have you been?” she asked.
“Sorry Rosie I was held up. The Manageress found me in the rug room and
stopped my search.” I explained. The Manageress produced the large rug, Rosie stared at it.
“My rug!
I haven’t seen that in ages!” she
whooped. Rosie ran towards the
Manageress nearly knocking her down.
“Hey Rosie! Calm down dear!” the Manageress said. She threw the rug over Rosie’s back and pulled
it around her shoulders.
“That’s better. Thanks.”
Rosie said. The Manageress hugged
Rosie tightly.
“You
don’t know how much I think about you Rosie,”
she said. Rosie nuzzled the
Manageress’s shoulder while trying to fight back tears. Rosie said,
“It’s the love that you have shown to me
that keeps me alive.”
“You’re a soppy old thing Rosie.” John said.
Rosie then said something that started me thinking.
“It’s your memories of me that keep me
alive.” I stopped.
“You mean that if we stopped thinking of
you, you would die?” I asked.
“Yes.”
Rosie replied.
“So you’re living in our minds
Rosie?” the Manageress asked.
“Well, yes, I think so.” Rosie replied. I said,
“But Rosie, you’re real. I have rubbed noses with you.” Rosie looked confused.
“Yes, I can’t explain that,” she said.
“Forget the explanation. It’s better if we don’t know.” The Manageress said. John yawned.
“Time for bed I think,” he said.
The Manageress agreed with him. I
was not surprised because it was three in the morning. The Manageress had to be up at six
thirty. The two humans walked out of the
school and closed the door. Rosie lay
down on the straw bales and wrapped herself in the rug. She left enough of the huge rug for me to do
the same as she had. I wrapped myself in
the remaining part of the rug and joined Rosie on the straw bales. We fell asleep feeling strangely elated.
The next day Rosie and I
woke to a rainy day. Rosie looked out of
the window and made a face at the rain streaming down the glass.
“Ugh, yuck! Horrible, disgusting weather!” she fumed.
“No change there then.” I thought.
Rosie turned away from the window and faced me.
“Back to work today?” she asked.
“Can you work?” I asked.
“Yes, why not?” Rosie asked.
“No reason.” I replied.
So Rosie went back to
work. But she was far, far different to
what she used to be. She seemed to react
faster to commands than she used to. The
humans noticed this also. Rosie ran
about with the energy of a five year old horse.
I watched her almost fly around the school. At one point she got too enthusiastic and
nearly decanted her rider on to the peat flooring.
“Hey Rosie! Cool it dear.” The Manageress said. Rosie tossed her head with pride and was told
to halt. Although her rider told her to
halt in the correct manner, Rosie didn’t.
All right she stopped for all of five seconds, but then was off around
the school dancing about with a rookie human on her back!
“Rosie, have a care will you! Think about your rider! He’s only been riding for two hours, he’s not
got a licence yet!” I yelled. Rosie started to loap around the school and
caused her rider to hang on for dear life!
Rosie loaped around the school four times before she came to a stand
still.
“That was wonderful!” Rosie said.
Her rider slid off her back and stood shaking beside her. He put his arms around her neck and leant
against her shoulder to recover from the most frightening five minutes on
horseback he’d ever had. Rosie’s rider
said something unprintable.
“Give you a shock did she?” the Manageress asked.
“Yeah, something like that.” Rosie’s rider replied. Rosie thumped her rider’s shoulder until he
produced a packet from his pocket.
“Something different for you Rosie,” he said.
Rosie should have hung back and questioned it, yes, she really should
have. The packet her rider had produced
wasn’t containing the usual polo mints.
Unknown to the rider Rosie had an intense dislike for the fruity
polos. This was what the packet
contained. Rosie crunched the polos and her
expression went from happy to one of disgust!
She spat the polos out onto the peat in a most undignified fashion. She ran from the school and barged into
Ruby’s box in a most impolite manner.
“Hey what the hell do you think you’re
playing at Rosie?” Ruby asked angrily.
“Sorry Ruby, but I need water, quick!
“ Ruby was so unnerved by Rosie’s
frantic manner that she let her drink.
Ruby watched in astonishment as Rosie drained her water bucket twice
causing it to refill automatically. Rosie
finally withdrew her nose from the bucket and looked apologetically at Ruby.
“Look, Ruby, I’m really sorry. My rider gave me some of those fruity
Polos. I had to get to water quickly,
your box was the first I came to.” She
explained. Ruby asked,
“But why panic? They were only fruity polos Rosie.” Rosie gave Ruby a look of disgust!
“Only fruity polos! Do you know what happens when I try to eat
fruity polos? Well I’ll tell you. My mouth was burning!” Ruby looked dumbly at Rosie.
“Why?”
she asked faintly.
“Acid!”
Rosie replied.
“Acid?”
Ruby enquired.
“Yes, citric acid. Found in all fruit Ruby.” Rosie replied.
“Oh right, I see what you’re driving
at.” Ruby said. Rosie left Ruby’s box and returned to the riding
school. The Manageress saw her coming.
“Oh there you are Rosie,” she said.
“Yes, I’m here.” Rosie replied flatly. She cast an angry look at her rider.
“It’s all your fault!” she snapped.
I was totally unprepared for this.
“Rosie!
That’s no way to speak to a human, and anyway, he didn’t know!” I said.
“No, I suppose not. I’m sorry.”
Rosie said. Rosie’s rider came
towards her holding out a fist full of polo mints.
“I think you’re looking for these,” he said.
Rosie sniffed at them suspiciously.
“They are mint flavoured.” The Manageress assured her. Rosie took one carefully and sucked it a
while. Then she crunched it slowly. Then quickly she wolfed the whole lot!
“Steady on rose’’!” her rider exclaimed. Rosie had changed physically beyond all
recognition. The changes were mainly in
the way she walked and held herself. The
way she reacted to commands had changed.
There was none of the lethargy that used to characterise her work. Now she was willing to work, very willing
indeed. I think she would rival Ruby for
reaction time. Rosie’s new rider left
the school for another week.
Since Rosie had destroyed
the inside of the restaurant the Manageress hadn’t been able to use it. The work was coming along slowly but Rosie’s
few moments of madness had cost the Manageress more than just a lot of wasted
time. The damage meant that she couldn’t
hold business lunches or any other function in the restaurant. This frustrated her greatly. The Manageress had a stern word with Rosie
about the trouble she had caused.
We were in a field just off
the main yard when the Manageress came round looking for Rosie in a furious
temper! The insurance people had just
quoted the cost of repairing the damage Rosie had caused to the restaurant, and
the Manageress wasn’t very happy. She
could afford it that wasn’t the problem; the problem was that Rosie didn’t seem
to care what problems she caused. The
Manageress was furious with her. She
came stamping across the field waving her lungeing whip angrily! I backed off hurriedly and let the Manageress
and Rosie sort their own problems out.
Rosie eyed the advancing human with misgiving. Something told her,
“That human’s going to hit me!” In truth the Manageress wouldn’t have hit
anything with the whip unless all else had failed. But Rosie was convinced that the Manageress
was intent on doing her harm. This was
irrational because the Manageress had never hit her in the past. The Manageress had no intention of ever
touching Rosie with the whip, let alone hitting her. It was a symbol to the mare that the
Manageress meant business. Rosie let the
Manageress get so close, then squealing in terror she ran across the
field! The Manageress took off across
the field after her fleeing horse. The
long thong on the end of her lungeing whip streamed out behind her like some
sort of tail! This looked curious I can
tell you. In a moment of pure madness I
THOUGHT,
“I never knew the Manageress had a tail!” Then it dawned on me that the tail was not a
tail, but the thong on her whip.
Rosie stood on the other
side of the field in a sorry state. She
was shaking uncontrollably from nose to tail!
Her breathing was rapid and shallow and her eyes were like saucers in
their sockets as she faced the Manageress.
Rosie was almost sobbing!
“Put that bloody thing down!” she pleaded.
It must be understood that the Manageress had not threatened Rosie in
any way with the whip. She had even
stopped waving it. The whip pointed
towards the ground with the thong curled around the shaft, and the end in the
Manageress’s hand. In a normal situation
this would have signalled to a horse that the whip was to be used as a
directional tool only. Rosie knew
this but something from way back in her
life told her otherwise. The Manageress
not understanding Rosie’s fear kept hold of her whip. Rosie lost all control! She screamed!
“Put that bloody whip down!” The Manageress was so surprised by Rosie’s
outburst that she dropped the lungeing whip on the grass. Before she could retrieve it however, Rosie
had kicked it far out of reach.
“What are you on about Rosie? You know I wouldn’t hit you with the
whip. It was meant to show you that I
meant business.” The Manageress said
quietly. Rosie almost choked on her
reply.
“No, not you, not you, someone, someone
else. I’ve a distant memory of someone
cutting me raw with a lungeing whip.”
“Rosie, you lived all your life in my
yard. I never hit you, let alone cut you
raw with it!” I must explain for anyone
that doesn’t know, that the term “cutting a horse raw” means that the rider or
driver whips the horse until the horse can’t stand any more and is pleading for
mercy. It’s a horrid practise and I’m happy
to say that the Manageress did not, and I repeat this, DID NOT! Ever practise
this on any of her horses. This fact
left the Manageress asking herself how Rosie had experienced anything like
this? She thought,
“Rosie was never a driving horse. So how on earth could she ever experience
being cut raw? I have never actually hit
a horse with the whip. All right I may
have threatened it, but I’ve never done it!”
The Manageress asked Rosie about her experiences.
“I remember being harnessed in a team of
horses. Our driver was a cruel man who
was known for his dreadful treatment of horses.
I don’t know why they let him loose.
Anyway, we were driving along a
road quite happily one day. This man was
being taught to drive with another team.
The instructor let him go on around the course on his own! I remember feeling terrified at this
news! As we set off the man flogged the
living daylights out of all of us! The
whip came down again and again! We were
at full gallop and he still cut us raw!
Some of the horses, for there were four in the team started
complaining. This only made the man more
angry with us! He cracked the whip
harder and harder across our backs! I
understand that the proper method of driving is not to touch the horse with the
whip at all. But we were getting touched
with it! Not touched, abused with
it!” The Manageress hugged Rosie.
“I would never hit you with the
whip. You never drove a yard in your
life! So I don’t know where you got this
story from. I believe you because you
wouldn’t lie about that. Anyway your
body language tells me it must be true.”
She called me over to her.
“Hey Jinja! Come over here a minute mate! I’ve got a question for you!” I trotted over to the Manageress wondering
what she could want with me? I didn’t
cause the damage to her restaurant! When
I reached her the Manageress asked,
“Jinja, can you explain what Rosie means
when she says she has been whipped by a man while she was in a driving
team?” I told her as much as I knew
about Rosie’s memories of being in a horsebox on her way to Suffolk from
Manchester.
“Wait!
Hang on! I’m confused. So Rosie’s had a brain transplant sort of
thing. Her brain has been put into the
body of a healthy horse?” the Manageress asked.
“I’m sure I don’t know, and neither does
Rosie, do you love?” I asked. Rosie shook her head.
“No, if I did then I’d feel a lot
better. But logic tells me that brain
transplants can’t happen. I’ll leave you
to draw your own conclusions as to who or what caused this to happen. All I know is what I’ve told you.” Rosie replied.
“So you have some of another horse’s
memories?” the Manageress asked.
“Well, yes I must have.” Rosie replied. The problems Rosie had caused in the
restaurant had flown straight out of the Manageress’s mind it seemed. I knew that the Manageress thought of her
horses as part of her Family. She had
been extremely upset when Rosie passed away.
The Manageress had said that she would never get another Irish Draft
horse. But she had one, two in
fact. Ellen still lived in the
yard. Rosie rested her head on the
Manageress’s shoulder as best she could.
I could see she was shaking violently.
The Manageress noticed this too.
“Hey Rose’, what’s wrong?” Rosie suddenly raised her head and screamed
in terror!
“Get Domino away from me!” The Manageress was now confused more than
ever.
“What do you mean Rosie? Domino’s nowhere near you. Come to think of it I’ve not seen her in
days,” she said. Rosie’s eyes were full of fear and terror!
“Domino’s going to harm me in some way
Jinja!” Rosie yelled.
You will probably be asking
one, or both of two questions by now.
One, why was Rosie asking me to get Domino away from her, if Domino wasn’t
even within sight? And two, has Rosie
totally flipped? The answer to one of
those questions is, no Rosie has not flipped.
She could feel the bad vibes that Domino was creating. In another part of the yard, at that very
moment, Domino was saying some unprintable things about Rosie and myself. I couldn’t know this because I couldn’t hear,
but Rosie could and it frightened her.
She told us as much.
“I don’t know, these horses get stranger
and stranger with every day that passes.”
The Manageress said. Rosie was
furious!
“Are you implying that I’m strange
human?” She shrieked.
“No, No that was just me thinking aloud
that’s all.” The Manageress
replied. Rosie wasn’t convinced. She laid back her ears and snapped at the
Manageress almost driving her attack home!
I threw myself at Rosie managing somehow to knock her down! This might be said to be impossible
considering Rosie’s advantage in terms of sheer size and power. But there’s always the element of surprise,
and it’s said that the larger they are, the harder they fall. This was true in Rosie’s case. Rosie’s teeth missed their intended target
and her jaws snapped shut on thin air, while her body fell sideways and crashed
onto the grass with me on top of it.
Rosie screamed obscenities at me as she fell. The Manageress looked on wondering what had
happened. From the launch of the attack
on the Manageress to the time I brought Rosie down was about one and a half
seconds!
Rosie lay on the grass
squealing with rage and terror!
“What the hell do you think you were doing
Jinja?” she yelled.
“Saving the Manageress from a possible
long stay in hospital!” I yelled
back. Rosie kicked and thumped me a good
deal.
“Get off me Jinja!” she yelled.
“No, not until you promise me you’ll leave
the Manageress alone!” I replied.
“That human said I was strange, that I
was strange! Jinja, she keeps asking me
who I am, why this or that happens, what does this mean? What does that mean? I can’t stand it! Can’t you tell her that if I could tell her I
would, but I can’t Jinja, I can’t! I
can’t because I don’t know! I don’t know
anything for sure!” Rosie sobbed. I released Rosie and stood up. Rosie was so weak from emotion that she had
difficulty getting to her feet.
Eventually she managed to stand however.
The Manageress had heard every word that Rosie had said.
“You see Rosie dear, things like this
don’t happen usually. It’s human nature
to ask questions and to want to get to the bottom of something like this. Humans have a problem with accepting anything
out of the ordinary without question.
You passed away, and now you have returned. We think it’s you anyway. How can this happen? You say that it is our love for you and your
love for us that keeps you alive. You
may be right, I don’t know. What I do
know is that we in the house and Jinja in particular feel a lot better for
having you back with us.” Rosie replied:
“Let’s leave it unexplained shall we. I can’t explain what happened. You humans, who seem to be able to explain
most things can’t explain it, so let’s leave it.” The Manageress walked away thinking hard
about what she’d heard. For myself I
don’t know what brought Rosie back to me.
Nor do I know how long she’ll stay with me. But I’m grateful for every minute I have with
her.
“While you have a good thing don’t
question it.” I thought. But I don’t blame the Manageress or any other
human for questioning what to them must have been a very strange thing
indeed. Very few humans now just accept
what happens to them. I suppose it’s not
the human way of doing things.
Rosie and I are still
together. The humans that look after us
have stopped asking why she came back to us the way she did. I don’t know what the Manageress or any other
human believes, for me though, well, I don’t know. Perhaps it is like Rosie said.
“Your love for me keeps me alive.”
Domino never got her
“answers.” She’s still wondering till
this day what or who brought Rosie back, and whether Rosie’s a spirit or
not. I guess that’s a question for every
horse and human to answer in their individual ways. I can’t say much about anything because I
don’t know and never will, after all, I may be in a family with humans but I’m
still only a horse, I can’t forget that.
I
hope that no horse or human will be upset unduly when they read this account of one of the most distressing
chapters in the life story of the occupants of the yard. I’m glad I haven’t got to tell it again. It would be too upsetting a second time. I have to thank the Manageress, Clover, Ruby
and of course Rosie for helping me get through it. See you again some time.
I, MARTIN WILSHER, here by assert and give notice of my right under
section 77 of the Copyright, Designs and Patents Act 1988 to be identified as
the author of the foregoing article.
© Copyright Martin Wilsher 1998-2000
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